Story Of A Friend

She is the best example to show that true friend really does exist

:)

 Okay kita start kenal dia dah lama. Masa form one. Tapi start macam nak kacau dia tu masa form three dulu. Sebab sama tempat masa KH yang diajar oleh cikgu Marry Sally kiteeee (Saliaton Maria)

Hey, you see. Bukan senang nak jadi kawan dia masa mula-mula tu dulu okay.

Nak cakap dengan dia pun susah. Dia nanti boleh buat muka annoying tahap gorilla cari pisang tak jumpa punya kat kita

Terasa?

Jangan cakaplah memang terasa habis tau tak. Huh!

Words to describe her

GANAIH GILOSS MAKCIK NI!

Kikikki

x)

 But tu dulu, my perception masa dulu. Masa saya still tak kenal dia betul-betul.

But sekarang dah rapat dah. Makin lama kenal dia saya dapat rasa dia sangat-sangat baik. Hey fas, tolong jangan perasan yeeee, baik disini bukan bermaksud perangai dia macam cinderella or snow white yang lemah gemalai, dan  penuh sopan santun tu.

Sebab, HELLO!

Dia still ganas okay.

But heyy, lama-lama kita kenal dia. Macam-macam perangai dia kita dapat tau.

Dia pernah cerita, macam mana kawan-kawan lama dia betray dia dulu, masa dia cerita tu dia macam nak nangis, macam penuh dengan rasa geram. Tapi dia tahan. Biasalah, Farhanah. She will not let her tears fall easily in front of people. Dia cerita pasal rahsia dia yang sangat private. Okay, I taktau la apa secret dia tu. Sebab dia kadang-kadang sangat secretive jugak. But you see, kita sometimes should respect others’ privacy. Tengok ni kami yang mulut macam burung murai ni pun tau macam mana nak simpan rahsia tau. Kadang-kadang ada setengah rahsia orang yang ada isu sensitive kita kena pandai simpan. Kalau rahsia biasa-biasa tu lainlah cerita.

Lepas tu! Lepas tu! Lepas tu kannn!

(hyper jap)

Dia kan! Dia kan! Dia kan!

Hahahahahaha

Dia kaaaannnnn,

Dia suka main dengan teddy bear dia. Yang dia beli dekat London ke kat mana tah. Teddy bear tu comel sangat. Siap ada baju boleh tukar-tukar lagi.

Masa first dapat tau dia main teddy bear yang boleh tukar-tukar baju.

I’m like.....

Hahahahaha!

I can't believe it!

Farhanah is playing with soft toys! Farhanah is playing with soft toys! Farhanah is playing with soft toys! 

 Farhanah is playing with soft toys! ! !

Tapi, heyyy! Bukan soft toys ja okay. Macam-macam toys ada kat dalam rumah dia.  Hadiah birthday kita pun dia bagi soft toys. See, macam mana dia punya interest. Orang yang tak kenal dia memang takkan pernah anggap yang dia ada banyak gila collection of toys. Main tembak-tembak lah, apalah. I thought I sorang ja yang childish terlebih. Tapi dia pun samaaaa 

:3

 Macam-macam perangai dia kita dapat tau sekarang ni

Hahahaha

  

 Nampak cam keras ja di luar, tough, susah nak menangis semua  tapi actually sangat  lembut di dalam tau!

Ohh, how sweet!

Macam ice-cream magnum favourite dia tu lah.

Keras di luar, lembut di dalam.

:D

See, walaupun for others, she might be some kind of typical person yang amat-amat membosankan. But who cares? At least she has a big heart and tak pernah hypocrite dengan orang. Lepas tu actually, dia sangat caring. Ambil berat pasal kawan-kawan dia gila. Kalau dia susah hati pasal kita, nanti dia marah kita. She’ll say whatever she want. She didn’t even care if orang lain tak suka dia. Even kita sebagai best friend dia kalau ada buat salah pun, dia tegur la la tu jugak okay. (on the spot) . Memang pedas, memang sakit. Tambah lagi kalau orang lain dengar. Orang boleh ingat kita tengah gaduh tau! But see, Farhanah. I know who she is. Apa yang dia cakap tu takkan keluar dari mulut dia kalau just sebab nak malukan orang tu or apa-apa.

Eventhough she is brutal kind

And her action sometimes is like anoyying

Sometimes hurt, but

Farhanah Binti Ahmad Shukri

Really touch my heart

First time in my life,

After a long time I lead my life full of hypocrisy

I feel like want to care for a person’s heart.

Like really really care.

For a friend.

And will defend her hard

Like she did to me

Everybody is leaving me slowly. Slowly running away from my life.

“I'm not going to sit around, chase after you, give you all my attention, when you're out giving someone else yours....”

Last night I found myself standing in front of a mirror and cry. I don’t know what happened to me. I can’t do anything but staring at the screen. Thinking what should I answer him. Well, it’s hard to answer his question.  I can’t keep on lie to myself. And I also can’t afford to lose him. My eyes burst. Tears flow and continue rolling on my cheeks. Yes, I.. can’t.. bear.. the..pain.

I admit, I love him. I used to love him before.  But seeing him to be happy make me think twice.If I really love him, why don’t I just let him go so that he can be with whoever he thinks can make him happy.  Besides, there is no used I want to force him to be with me if he doesn’t have the same feeling like mine.

I know, letting him go is not easy. It is hard and painful. But, to be with a person who loved someone else won’t make me happy neither. So there, for your sake, I decided to let you go.

“But promise me you will be happy. With the one you choose to be,”

Today, one of my friend told me about her status at facebook. From the first I know something is not right since she doesn’t talk much. But I’m just like okay... Then, I saw she is writing something on a piece of paper. But I ignore her and continue chatting with the others as I thought she is doing her revision. She gave me the paper and said that is her status. I read the paper. Eversince, I feel like ‘something’. I don’t know how to describe. The feeling of guilty, anxious, sad, depressed and very much disturbed.

Her status sounds like this

“ Don't tease a good friend. Sometimes, it's the smallest things that make an impact. You may potentially lose the "proof that true friends really exist. :) ”

At first, I just let myself cool down and tried to ignore what I’ve read. I talk like usual. Laugh like usual. And act like usual. But, then the pain of ‘something’ in my heart is just unbearable, making my eyes burst into tears again. I cried like crazy and hurriedly go to my place and sit.

Dear friend,

“ I don’t my losing a guy. But I just can’t afford to lose a good friend like you in my life, I love you”

Everybody is leaving me slowly. Slowly running away from my life.